What a life

Lots of things have crossed my mind of late, and this is my vain attempt to pen.. ahum.. type them down..

I am going to begin with my grad life here.. something i am going to be stuck around with for a couple of years to go from now.. I am just not happy with my classes here.. When I applied for the grad program here, I was always under the illusion that every grad class lecture would be enlightening.. enlightening to the state, that at the end of the day, one can sleep peacefully, with a sense of accomplishment of having learnt something new and cutting edge, something beyond the realms of an ordinary mind.. of having had heated discussions dissecting the most minutest of details unaware of the external world as it may be.. of having acquired the skill to analyse any idea to its barest minimum.. but alas.. as i said.. its just been an illusion so far. Grad classes here are boring.. not even the enthusiasm of an undergrad class is to be seen any where close. Lots of hand waving.. and yeah we students.. what can I say.. are the most uninterested bunch in class..No participation unless needed.. and participation when not required, dont expect us to take the first step. I have seen a couple of lectures of OCW at MIT, and i am sure .. its not completely our mistake.. Period.


My research.. aah.. that one thing which has ever been successful in evading my pursuits. I am still unsure on what to do for my thesis. I want to work on ad hoc networks, particularly multi radio ad hoc networks to better deliver network services. But my advisor wants to put it in the context of the medical environment. I am just afraid that this medical thingy would be an engineering feat, no useful research would come out of it..but i am unsure of it.. And as such.. the CS world would be happy with any engineering feat anyways..

The Indian news media.. its really painful to see what the news media in india has done to itself. The indian news media today looks more like an entertainment channel than a serious disseminator of news content. Just look at the coverage of the ash-abhi marriage and prove me wrong if u can.. Not that i have any grudge against them.. but come on guys.. its time to get urselves back in order.. I have no respect for american news channels geiven the way they always monger to sensationalise an albeit isolated incident.. looks like news channels back home are no better than their american competitors... or shall i say..compatriots..

I am really concerned with certain developments in myself.. need to make a serious u turn in life..

I am just not enthused about my work and this is not a good feeling.. I feel like I need to be challenged more.. like prove a theorem kindof work.. but thats not happening in the near future..Hope i can find the right question for my thesis that will keep me engaged with full enthu all through my grad stay..